Sunday grab-bag

Here is a jumble of thoughts, ideas, questions, and discoveries of this sick-ish girl on a lonely Sunday afternoon.

Thoughts

• I can't believe I just applied to three jobs on the East Coast! All in Virginia. 
• I feel really good about Virginia right now. Even though I haven't applied for any full-time teaching positions which is...you know...what I'm getting my degree in. It's cool though.
• I also feel terrified about moving across the country alone. Especially for a part-time job. 
• I can't flipping wait to perform in Ogden and stay at my house for a night with three of my favorite girls in the world. AH!

Ideas

• The world should know that bunions aren't gross. You thought they were filled with puss or something equally disgusting didn't you? They're not. And they're painful. And yes I have one.  
• I need a cheap as free haircut. With no layers. I'm super boring. 
• Student teaching should NOT require me to make up the two days I have to miss for folk dance. 

Questions

• Why didn't I know until today that lds.org has those old school seminary videos from the 90's in their media library? Perfect Sunday afternoon activity when you can't keep your eyes open long enough to do the Gospel study you want to do. 
• Why does lds.org STILL not have Legacy up as one of their feature films? I mean really.
• Why is it that when I rarely get sick (like less than once a year) for the last 5 years of my life, I suddenly get sick twice in the span of half of a semester?
• And why am I getting sick the week before I have the performance of my life in my hometown Ogden where my friends, family, and old dance people may be coming to see what I've been doing the past five years?
• Do I really want to teach high school and/or jr. high or do I just want to teach dance?

OR

Discoveries

• a.m. cold medicine affects me the same as p.m. medicine. Thus why I barely made it through Sacrament meeting today and stumbled home like a drunkard accompanied by my loving roommate. 
• Bodies can make mucus seriously quickly. And my body might be even better than others. Sorry that's kind of gross. But it's so grossly true. 
• I still like Ramen. COLLEGE. No parents. 
• The nice Kleenex with the lotion are totally worth it. 
• I might be allergic to dating. Just a theory. 

Obama's blues

The president is singing the blues.

Is there anything more awesome than this?

V-day wrap-up and Parent Teacher Conferences.

A day of lists. We'll start with the V-day wrap-up. A list of what my roomie Megan-o and I wrote (with a guest appearance by Christina Craven) in our love game. And yes some things have been omitted because not everything needs to exist on the internets.

I love Lynette because she bought chocolate today. The Gospel. Christ. Truth. James Talmage. iPods. Amber. 8th period. Dante's job. Jane by Design. Matthew Atkinson. NICK FADDEN! Texting. Mornings that aren't 5:45. Stutters. Christina. Humanities. Don Q conversations. Megan-o. Lynette! Doing nothing. Chocolate. Journals. Saturdays. Sweat pants. Sleep. Not wallowing. Ice cream. Crepes. Illnesses leaving. Preach My Gospel. The fact that I thought this said creeps (with an arrow pointing to crepes). FB stalking. Lynette's squeaky voice. Mikey. Megan-o. Spotify. Pesos. 8th period helping out. When Jake is good. Participation. Short faculty meetings. Making grades better. Sleep. Preach My Gospel. Day being over. Being trusted. Family. Having grades entered. Pink nails. My perfume. Being giddy. Mrs. King. That cute boy in 101. Smell-good boys. Water. Dinner. Amanda. Love songs. Blogging. Sounding like a woman. Not coughing. Funny videos. Pink. Comfortable shoes. Good hair. Healthy days. Megan's healthy days. Thomas. Mike Steele. Folk skirt. Speaking in Church. Learning from my mistakes. Chivalry. Rides home. Made up raps. McD's. Pepe at McD's. Codster. On-task Jake. Being complimented by students. AMBER. Dinner I didn't make. Blogging. Reading cool blogs. Sweats. Guy friends. Totally Missing the Point . Lauri. Having a job. Maddie. Holly. Cassidy. Caroline. David. Spanish. Spanish music. Timpview. Good groupwork. Bubble gum pink skirt. Friday. Jane By Design. Blue shirt. Tandy. Mikayla. Kelsey. Friendship. TOUR. Julie. Jon. Jeanette. Mike Steele. New blog. Mikey. Katrina's shirt. FRIDAY. Island projects. Review days. Dan's 101%. Bed. Leggings. Not having appendicitis. Cough drops even if they're nasty. This episode of Jane By Design. Free pizza. Good weather. Not being rejected. Brownie bites. Curled hair. SUNDAY. Speaking in church. Compliments. The Alex incident. Flirting. Getting asked out. Not dying in the snow. Alina. Ashlee. Maloree. Noel. Noel's boots. Larissa. This sweater. Curled hair. Being added on Facebook. Family. Makeup. Review day! Test tomorrow! V-day tomorrow. Thomas. Folk skirt. Jeanette. Lauri. Valentines Day. Much Ado About Nothing. Kenneth Branagh. Emma Thompson. Lia. Jeremy! Talia! Hair staying curled. Hoops and Yoyo. Not being awkward. TMA! Kyle. Andrea. Jenn. Becca. Post-its. Garlic alfredo chicken pasta.

For the first year I had to refill the bowl of M&Ms! Megan-o and I have a lot of love.

And now for parent teacher conferences. I'll keep it short and sweet. Some words that come to mind after my first experience as a teacher at parent teacher conference.

Long.
Funny.
Really funny.
Awkward.
Long.
Insightful.
Useful.
Long.

I was also reminded that every time an opportunity to speak Spanish exists, my Spanish doesn't...

Thankfully none of these parents came...

2 Secrets and a Truth.

1. I used to hate Valentines Day. Also pink.

The pink thing changed when my mom gave me a huge, puffy, pink, Jigglypuff looking winter coat. I decided to like it. As for Valentines Day, I attribute much of it to my beautiful sister Shiree. Her love for it was infectious and adorable and cool.

I did NOT approve of that coat. At first. 

2. There is a point on Valentines Day when I'm just as sad and lonely as everyone else gets/has been.

Yep. I'm human. But here's the thing. This happens at the end of the day, after I've done my normal day things but always, always before I hand out Valentines. I highly encourage buying those paper valentines that you hand out in 4th grade because you may be amazed at how delighted people are to get these silly things. I'm sure nostalgia plays a large role in it. The other factor may be that they were sitting in their apartment feeling just like I was pre-Valentine handing out. I don't think I need to point out the moral of this story.

These were my valentines last year. 

This year I procrastinated to much to get anything this cool. 

If you've never seen this show...um...watch it. 

Here's one of my fav episodes. ONE of the many. 

1. Truth:
God is love. Here's the deal, this will always be my message on Valentines Day. There may be many facets of love but in God all of them are contained. It is no coincidence that the Disciple who so clearly stated this is called John the Beloved.

Let's just face it, the Beatles got it right. All you need is love.

It all comes back to you.

You give a little love and it all comes back to you.

You know you're gonna be remembered for the things you say and do. 

Karma is truth folks. You want love? Give it. Now here's the deal, just because you want a certain kind of love doesn't mean you will get that specifically. Just because you love a person doesn't mean they will love you back romantically, or even as a friend. Or even as a person! But if you put love out there you WILL receive love in return. Somehow. The world is balanced. Promise. 

Also. You should definitely watch Bugsy Malone if you never have. It's too good.

Love YOU.

So today I decided the most important thing for me to talk about would be loving yourself.  Because let's face it, that is one of the hardest things to do. 


A quote I found from a Young Women's lesson lds.org "We are children of God, and when we do not love ourselves, we are not respecting the things God has created." 

I have friends who have a hard time with this and I find myself getting almost angry about it. Not loving yourself means you're not fully loving God! He truly sent his Son to die out of love for you. And his son and your Savior died (and lived) because of his love for you. 


Also, he created you. Individually he made you and is the father of your spirit. How proud are you of things you have created? He has that much love and more for you! He is proud of what you are and sees your eternal worth and when you don't see it, just think how hard that is for Him to see. 


 Have you ever had a friend who you just adore. You know how wonderful they are and what they are capable of. But then they don't see it and they get discouraged. Isn't that just about the most frustrating thing ever? Magnify that a hundred fold. That's the frustration from an Eternal Father who sees your potential. And He knows exactly what your potential is because He gave it to you!


Now remember, self love doesn't mean you only consider yourself and not other people, or that you accept your faults as is and not work on them. The Lord chasteneth those whom he loves. We can and should still be self critical while at the same time keeping in mind our self worth. They must exist together though they seem opposite. Like justice and mercy. Sound familiar? 


You're wonderful. Now go do some soul (and scripture, and prayer) searching until you believe it. 

Love it.

Today I had this extremely interesting day. It was full of a great variety of things and experiences and I loved it.

Now, while I had a day that was fairly easy to love, it helped me remember another thing to love. LIFE. Recently we learned a new Mexican dance on my folk team (Jalisco! It's so cool!). The dance was hard and tiring and different than I expected. Rehearsals were frustrating at first, but then I decided to LOVE it.

By our last rehearsal with the choreographer, I legitimately loved the dance. Le.git. It was fantastic. All because I chose to.

So today I say to you. Love life. LOVE what life gives you.

Come what may, and love it.

Have you noticed that I love Elder Wirthlin? He is my favorite Apostle of all time, I miss hearing his sweet testimony in General Conferences.